Siapa Diriku Di Sisimu

Hembusan angin bagai membawa berita..
Berita yang mengecewakanku..
Apa yang terjadi bukan yang ku impikan..
Namun ku tabahkan hati ini..

[Chorus 1]
Sayangku..
Ku tahu kau tak ingin begini..
Tapi kau..sanggup lakukannya..
Betapa..hatiku hancur musnah berderaian/berderai..
Tidak seorang pun yang memahami hati dan perasaanku..

[Chorus 2]
Kerna cintakanmu kujadi begini..
Kerna sayangkanmu kutelan semua..
Betapa hebatnya kau dihati ini..

Kenapa kau tak pernah fikirkan aku..
Kenapa si dia jadi pilihanmu..
Ku sedar siapa diriku di sisimu..
Disisimu..

Kuharap suatu hari kaukan mengerti kasih..Siapa diriku di sisimu..
Pengorbananku bagai tak pernah dihargai..
Ia bagai angin yang berlalu..

[Repeat chorus 1-2]Kenapa kau tak pernah fikirkan aku..
Kenapa si dia jadi pilihanmu..
Ku sedar siapa diriku di hatimu..
Kasih..

[Repeat chorus 2]

Kenapa kau tak pernah fikir hatiku..
Kenapa si dia jadi pilihanmu..
Ku sedar siapa diriku di sisimu..
Di sisimu..di sisimu..
Aku di sisimu..

aku rasa lagu nie mcm related dengan aku je T_T
menusuk di kalbu....

A.G.A.I.N.

hard to explain.. but a few things to 'cakap'

broken heart

rasa dipermainkan

di tipu selama setahun lebih

syok sendiri

sampai hati die

then, aku tahu..aku x sempurna....a lot of improvement kena aku buat....
pengajaran: jangan mengharap and jangan syok sendiri!

Untuk kali ke-2

 Did I do something wrong?

Please tell me what should i do?

You keep blaming me..

 Did I do something wrong?

I felt like my heart stopped beating.

Am i ok or should i worry?

I feel like I cant breathe...


Quotes: U deserve to do what U want. U have YOUR right (Anonymous, 2012)

MY messed up table!

BERSEPAH & TIDAK TERURUS!

ye...2 adalah perkataan yg terkuar di mlut aku di kala melihat pic ini...
well...thats exactly what my table looks like :-D

1) tong bawah meja 2...equipment untuk aku gunakan sepanjng research aku...
2) fail semua bersepah di kala supervisor menegaskan student die produce paper untuk submit ke journal *baru nk sedor diri*
3) ye memg lappy aku sedang memaparkan facebook...tapi....tapi...tapi...itu hanya sementara...hanya untuk menyuci mata...home bnyk pic orang tunang, kawen, dpt anak...oh sungguh indah pemandangan *ceh padahal jeles..*
4) bantal terang benderang kat atas fail...aku hanya perlukan nye atas dua sebab..yg pertama : bila bnyk sngt duduk, badan akan rasa lenguh2..so bantal nie amat la bermakna bagiku... kedua: bila mata x mampu lagi untuk di buka....bila masa2 gentir tiba  (nak tido) bantal ini amak berguna untuk aku.. T_T
5) nampk x keyboard sebelah air teh 2??? nampk? nampk? ye keyboard itu amat berguna padaku....penat menaip guna notebook...aku bertukar ke keyboard lebih besor! maen game syok woooo!!!
6) yg kertas kuning lekat kat kaca 2, list to do aku....tpi nan hado aku nk buat! note 2 aku buat hiasan je la...dah sampi due date, baru nk sedor diri! *bila la ko nk abis master ila woiiiii*

hah...sekeping pic aku leh terangkan bnyk benda.....wow! kalu la aku buat benda yg sama untuk aku wat thesis...mesti hebat kan... *hahah...sedor pun*

Trying So Hard To Make a Relationship Work

Having someone special to love and be loved by is one of our most basic human needs. For some of us, the need for love feels just as essential as our need for oxygen. Without this love we feel as if we will die. We want it so much, but love doesn’t always come easy. Many of us have never had our basic needs met and that leaves us feeling as if we are starving for love and affection.

Every now and then, someone comes along who appears to hold the promise of being that special someone. But for whatever reason they do not reciprocate our feelings. They may have a very limited capacity to love or bond with another human being or they act in ways that are hurtful. The painful feelings of hurt, disappointment, desperation and fear of getting hurt again can make us extremely vulnerable. We often find ourselves trying to make the relationship work, but in doing so we are setting ourselves up for a fall. 

We try to make relationships work for a number of reasons. Many of us have been deeply wounded and are trying desperately to get the love and attention we've never received. Those of us who don't know any better fail to recognize the red flags that would alert us to potential dangers and because of that we fall into the trap of becoming attached to someone who is unavailable or abusive.

People who reenact our early hurts and traumas will invariably evoke more painful feelings and issues thereby causing us even more suffering. We keep trying to fix the relationship or make it right, but the person we’re trying to maintain a connection with continues to do things that keep adding to the hurt and that only deepens our emotional wounds. 

We're trying to make a relationship work anytime we chase after another person. We keep calling or emailing even when they don't respond. We tolerate and even justify their lack of interest and abuse. We try so hard to convince the person whose love we so desperately desire to be with us. But all of these things only make us less attractive in their eyes. In some instances, we keep on trying until the person we’re longing for eventually does something hurtful just to be mean or to finally get rid of us. That can cause us tremendous pain and then we find ourselves sinking ever deeper into the hole that we have been digging for ourselves. For many this pattern of crash and burn has become a vicious cycle.

kerdit to: http://www.doiohm.com/trying_so_hard_relationship.htm

Rindu~

Sangt merindui die yang lama..~





Sangt Rindu....



Yang baru dah laennnnn....




Tak sama dengan yang lamaaa...




Sangt laennnnnn....




Sangt rindu die yg lamaaa... :(



ye....saya nak yang lama....saya x suke yg baru.





Please.....Im begging you...

Maybe~

sesungguh nye saya rindu kat die..

adakah die jugak begitu? :(

oh malang2..

[ PART 3 ] Quotes

I don't know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every part of my body is broken too.

Chloe Woodward

[ PART 2 ] Quotes

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its your forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be.

Source Unknown

[PART 1] Quotes

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
Marilyn Monroe

i luv u JUz ThE WAy U aRe

ececeh...

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huyooooooo...jiwang doh aku!!! mesti la x!! hahaha..
nie buku aku beli ngan baucer 200 aku..hahahah...berbaloi2..baca hoi...

penulis nye : Datin Seri Latipah Abdullah, Dr. Amida Abdulhamid & Jalilah Abdullah..

buku die sngt best..bnyk pengajaran aku dpt..even aku  lum nak kawen lagi tpi untuk preparation x salah kottttt..hehehehe... 


Waalaikumussalam.. :)

MAT saya cedera parah.. T_T

 ASSALAMUALAIKUM

MAT saya sakittttt...kaki die cedera parah..cian die....dah 2 minggu kaki die cedera parah...tpi saya baru ganti kaki die..maaf kan saya MAT saya promise saya x akan cedera kan kaki MAT lgi...cian die.... terima kasih jugak kat MR. BUN tolong saya antakan MAT saya kat hospital... T_T

ini la MAT saya!!! :D die dah sihat!!! yeay!!!!!!!!!!



Waalaikumussalam.. :)